sometimes i feel very fortunate to have someone like you right beside me.
i haven't love anyone that much for quite awhile now but you are making me fall in love with you even more each day.

there were times we argued and quarreled but there were also times when we would laugh so hard together and enjoy ourselves. as time goes by, i guess we slowly learned how to accept each others flaws and live with it.

i remember the time when we first met - something about you just attracted me and from then on I was mesmerized.
i would wait at NUS, hoping that you would appear so that i would catch a glimpse of you.
i remember the first time you asked me out on a movie / roller-blading date and how you ended up sleeping in the theatre.
i remember how we would stay by the beach / park with 'zhenzi' and talk into the wee hours of the night.
i remember the times when I would bring breakfast for you and you would finish it no matter what.
i remember how we had heated arguments and you would vanish into thin air. I would get so worried and spam you with emails and phonecalls and cry myself to sleep. When you finally replied, i would feel so relieved and smile all over again.
i remember the times when you would whip up a good meal for me by the beach and won't mind getting all sweaty all over again.
i remember the times when you would travel all over singapore when i was sick.
i remember the time when you held back your punches at my dad even though you were fuming inside cos it showed me how much you really want to make things work and not to make things difficult for me.
i saw the effort you've put in to make sure you please my parents by sending me back early cos you don't want me to get screamed at.
i remember the time when we had the 'scare' and you were almost all so ready to face it with me.
i remember how you would put out your cigarette just cos i couldn't stand the smoke.
i remember how you would go all over singapore to satisfy my food cravings.
i love the way you get would call a number of times when I go out with guy friends cos it shows that you cared.
i love the way you tell me you just want to grab me and go to the church with me this minute.
i love the way you hug me to sleep and then snore the next minute.
i love the way you are able to have control over my emotions.
i love the way you say that you're working hard for your career and OUR future cos it makes me feel accepted into your life.
i love the way you gave me big hugs just cos i wanted them.
i love the way you say 'dear, i love you!'
most importantly, i love you for being yourself.

there are times (almost everytime) i do have a naive thinking that i do want to be that special someone in your life even though i know that we might not even be together eventually.
when this happens, i feel so insecure by alot of things you say cos it makes me feel that you aren't sure yet and it makes me worry cos anytime you can tell me that i am not the one for you. then, you will leave me.
i start becoming very unreasonable and throw my tantrums at you.
i know i haven't been very accommodating and understanding during this period of time and sometimes i ask myself why am i throwing such tantrums.
that's because i care and i can't bear to lose you just yet.

dear, i might not be the prettiest girl on earth or in singapore. i might not even be the most understanding and supportive girlfriend i would very much want to be. i might not even be the smartest and most virtuous girl around. or i might not be better that any of the other girls you have been together with. but this is who i am. i really do hope that you would love me for who i am and not for who i am not. will u accept my flaws and love me for who i am?

i love you, dear.